its weird, when you find exactly what you want and what you feel is right,
and you have to wait it out. its one of those things where i know we both felt the same feelings, strong ones. its love. deep down to the core. and cold feet get in the way. but i know you love me and i love you right back. its something niether one of us can say anymore, but youre my best friend and i dont want any one different, you mean the world to me, and to replace you would be nothing short of second best, because no one is better than you. you are wonderful. you love God and you do  your best to serve him, and i get to watch. you are a provider. and i feel safe in your arms and your presence and thats how it should be. you are capable of loving unconditionally and i admire that in you.
its so weird for my soul to not want another, for me to not crave freedom from this, and thats how  i know it is right and i know you have to do what you need to do during this time, but i sure miss you.
i miss our conversations the most, and i know things wont go back to great at the end of this, in fact, we may have to start completely anew. and that is okay. id rather start over with you than be with somebody else. i know i repeat myself but its only because i want you to know that i care, alot, about you. i am trying my best to give you what you need, but some days, i just need you to talk to me like nothing is wrong or that your heart is hardened, i know you care. and i know we desire the same things in this and in life, and i dont want you to lose sight of that or of the Lord, so please....just hang in there, and dont grow cold, because i would do anything for you to know my thoughts and for you to know how much you mean to me.