youre still my best friend

God gave me you for the ups and the downs,so i can't be discouraged, for He will be glorified, and i recognize your obedience and all that it entails...so even though this is hard for me, i know it is best for you, so i will hold on, knowing that the end result will be beautiful, when your struggles are no longer. it is easy to be angry and therefore in order to be stronger, i will not fall into anger.
it is easy to believe lies, therefore i will not. i will hang on every word, and trust that you have my best interest at heart and even more importantly that my Creator has my best interest at heart...
and he knows that my heart desires you when things are all said and done, and he knows what is best for us.together and apart.
i pray that you don't forget our sweet moments together, like morning kisses, a cruise, valentines day, cstat, weekends together, or smaller things, like sharing deodorant, and wearing your shirts, or dancing in hotel rooms to late hours of the night trying to perfect the pretzel, the list goes on, from bra shopping to walking around the block, you have brought joy to all these things for me, and your smile seems to agree.
i pray that your soul be renewed and wonderful, that you recognize what is right, and i pray for determination and strength and perseverance and peace.
i pray that you understand where i am coming from and that you know i will not waiver,
i will be by your side as your best friend, like it always has been and always will be, although this is hard, my tears are done, and i can now learn to encourage and love you better, for in this, i am trying to be thankful.
i do not harbor anger in your direction, and i try not to worry as you go forth on your own, please dont fail to keep informed and set me at ease, for it is a rough transition.

best friend, you mean alot to me, more than words can express, you have not failed me, and you have always directed my eyes to the Lord and not to your own hands, for i have learned so much through all of this and i know it can only get better, day at a time, and i pray that we can rebuild our relationship with an even greater foundation. so do what you must, and soak it all in, for you are wonderful, and God is going to do great things for you in the course of this time.