doors.doors.doors.

I was just recently approached with this beautiful,

hippie, coffee shop job, yes perfect for me? i know.

craaaaaapppy hours though, 6pm to 2 am. for a girl who has to get up at 7 everyday, this will just not do.at all.3 shifts of a week would mean no sleep.

money cannot seem to buy me sleep.

everything inside of me wanted to take this job, 

but what could possibly be holding me back?

was God literally telling me NO?

the lady on the other end of the phone was not the nicest, in fact she was the pushiest most stubborn boss a girl could ask for.

yes i would meet great people.

and yes i could display my awesome art,

but at the cost of what? my grades, my sleep and my social life?

yes i wanted to prove everyone wrong.that i could do it, that i could manage life on 5 hours of sleep always.

but reality socked me in the face when i realized, NO erika this isnt the best plan, yes your body would hate you.your life would be consumed by coffee and school.

can you live with that?

the thoughts in my head were ones of: Erika why are you so lazy?

what are you doin with your time?

my mind battled itself.

i then came to the conclusion that if God really wanted me to have that job, then i would get in due time.

so i shut that door, slammed it actually,

maybe out of anger that i couldnt do something i desired from deep within.

but maybe it wasnt the best for me at this moment in time.

next thing i know.

RING RING RINNNNNNG

my phone, a random number.

what is this?!

i answer reluctantly.

and i am blessed beyond relief.

loooong storrrry short,

i have was given the beautiful opportunity to be a young life leader 

at a nearby high school

Lord, why me?

i then realized this was the answer to my question,

no more laziness in your faith, Erika.

get up, get out and invest,

disciple and love.

love on kids younger than you.

so needless to say, i wont be putting money in my pockets, 

i will be filling teenager's pockets with love.

how amazing is that?

look where leaning on God can take you.

 which brings me to this verse, sent to me by my mother:

TRUST GOD from the bottom of your HEART,

don't try to figure out everything on your own.

LISTEN for God's voice in everything you do,everywhere you go,

He will keep you on track:) Proverbs 3:5-6